Regal Caviar from my Following
I mean, Real Caveats to my following this course of action:
(though can be addressed, complicated, mitig'ed) and in fact TO BE INC'ed
in Purpose/Proposal Paper above:
I've always had a nagging suspicion even in my most rapturous hand patting back moments that what I was churnign out was actually crap, not to mention feeling that way acutely when back down again, not to mention not to mention seeing some of the crap on paper, which sometimes is worse in that it's not bad, it's nothing. (some creativity is necessary to be really bad). I'm also, of course, familiar with public discourse and sentiment, prevailing or no, probably prevailing, that writing under the influxence is not productive, a good idea, or advisable. Then again, there's the other camp with favorite examples, personal anecdotes, and a pegging of the politcal paranoia to point to. And there are excepttions, if they are that. Again, complykatie. always. I hold no illusions though, and my browsing today for writing on drugs was not so much revelatory as nuanced and convincing in many ways heretofore unexperienced. This New Yorker article may do it best:
http://www.newyorker.com/critics/books/?030106crbo_books
Including an indictment of the typical mode these books take on. A I'm disgusting but brave and elite and I will bring you along with me where you cannot go, dear reader. I'm not taking the time to explain it well, hell, it's all right there as good as it gets, but ultimately it's a moral wishy washyness. And damn, I'm guilty. I condemn the thing, but under it is an adventure, that I feell I have to offer, perhaps. fun. And lessons. Or, better, knowledge. Of the tree...
And then this (again, just a confirmation--but that I needed since I so wanted to be wrong on that point...some hope, evil hope, reluctant and hesitant I make a tentative furtive reaching iwth fingers, wrist, elbow...), More On Strategic Use, esp. longterm:
http://slate.msn.com/id/2118315/
but like I said, there's two sides (or three or four or 90253875) sides to every story. Behind this link are drug/writerly quotes. Notable is how Irvine Welsh turned a temporary delve into addiciton in a best selling book and movie called Trainspotting:
http://quotes.prolix.nu/Drugs/
And clearly, some people have gotten inspiration therefrom. But then again, I saw something that said something like "if you need drugs to write, maybe writing isn't your god-given gift/talent/whatever". Point. But then atheletes eating, steroids, machinery to enhance performance. Etc.
And saw somewhere some guy saying about this so-and-so writer who wrote one drugs "his poetry was most often mediocre". Well, shit, on what scale. Most people's poetry is far far worse than mediocre (okay, I guess there's a mathematical issue in the language there, but...). mediocre among the populace or among the best known writers of his time? fiar? and the drugs could hav nothing to do with it. he was mediocre before and after. or less than mediocre, you can't blame a man for wanting to rise to average by any means possible, can you? sure there's a price to pay. there's a price for every goddamn thing in this world. It's how you manage your money, making every decision individually and for you individually. I.e. not sweeping broad generalizng conclusions possible. Based on use, person,etc. etdc.
Good and long:
http://www.kuro5hin.org/story/2005/6/19/17750/5820
on Burroughs
More debate!
http://monkeyfilter.com/link.php/7865
Some very good stuff her from Martin Amis and Will Selft:
http://www.nigelberman.co.uk/feature1_28.htm
Shakespeare a smoker?
http://www.unexplained-mysteries.com/forum/lofiversion/index.php/t40345.html
I'll leave it there, bear.