Sinterance

Potential (theorized) Positives (functions, benefits, etc.) to following this course:
(to be addressed in the purpose/proposal doc above)
[from Avital Ronell's Crack Wars: Literature Addiction Mania]

"This logic called for a resurrectionist memory, the supremem lucidity of intoxication, which arises when you have something in you that must be encrypted."
? what might i have in me that demands to be encrypted or that I want to encrypted and why?

"We do not know how to renounce anything, Freud once observed. This type of relation to the object indicates an inability to mourn."
? Does all this arise out of my father's death, or my wife's leaving, or both, or my own exit?

"The addict is a non-renouncer par excellence..."
? Resonates with the way I can see value or understandor appreciate every side, thing, way, etc. The way I complicate everything is a way of holding every posibility , therefore non-renunciation.

a little heads-up, a spray of reverb'd associations here:
"Still, it is the case that the singular staging of theimaginary--'literature' in the widest sense--has a tradition of uncovering abiding structure of crime and ethicity with crucial integrity; on need only think of what Hegel drew from antigone or Freud from Oedipus Rex. These works have always worked as informants but they were nobody's fools--they talked to the philosophers because they had inside knowledge. So literature, which is by no means an innocent bystander but often the accused, a breeding ground of hallucinogrenres[THIS], has something to tech us about ethical fractures and the relationship to law."
- I'll limit myself for now to keying in on the two least personal investigations that my persoanl interrogation may conduct as suggested by this passage. The minutae may give us a new look at ethical fractures/fractals [I add], and [our] relationship to law.

"Drugs, it turns out, are not so much about seeking an exterior, transcendental dimension--a fourth or fifth dimension--rather, they explore fractal interiorityies. This was already hinted at by Burroughs's 'algebra of need.'"
? This exercise/project could be a unique and uniquely effective way to explore my fractal interiorities, whatever those are, and to solve for x my algebra of need. What do I need. What is my equation?

"It has been said that the pervert does not do drugs. Perhaps this refers to actions that are executed with guiltless precision."
- My use has always been marked by much guilt and shame.

"The task of extremist writing is to put through the call for a justice of the future....A justice of the future would hav eto show the will to rupture."
- This project certainly shows that or a degree of that or shows that to a degree. The writing is to make the move played out. Tired. Worn. so we can get interested in something else.

"To get off drugs...the addict has to shift dependency to a person, an ideal, or to the procedure itself of the cure."
- What I've always thought might be the key for me, what might finally do the trick. And at the same time justify all this blathery dithering.

"Benjamin takes an injection of a foreign body...iin order to express his inner experience. This is by no means an atypical gesture. To locate 'his' ownmost subjectivity, Thomas De Quincey cited Wordsworth. These texts are on each other. A textual communication based on tropium."
- An ingestion of foreign tropes. That make dizzy, delierious. The experience of literatuer and drugs. Maybe I take in the crack vapor to get an my insides then I vomit it out messy and disgusting for someone else to nauseate on and ingest the chuncks of pineapple tropes but also how I consume my own output, there are cycles in two directions, concentric?

"...literature initiated the experience of its own substance: organized by a concept of work, it soon came to know play's gravity. Such gravity exposed the work to eperiences of peril and experimentation, obligating literature to map out a toxicogeography--an imaginary place where literature could crash against its abyses and float amid fragments of residual transcendency."
- My recreational drug use has increasingly demonstrated to me the gravity of play. I have oft been exposed to peril and experienced experimentation. This all maps out for me my own little neighborhood of poisions; what should I stay away from, how do things affect me, what are the treatments (and I mean all things of life, beyond chemical subs)--my personalized toxicogeography, whihc contributes to a collective toxico....

[and I'm only to page 33 of this beautiful book]