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May 10, 2005
Won Worst First
Worse even than not stopping myself from taking in all thirty little collaterals of my loan to a man in need and then continuing on to 42 and 4 full days of wake to the tune of four and half hundred bucks at least is my not calling my mother on mother’s day and, in fact, seeing her call come in and choosing not to take it. That’s just low. Shameful. Poor woman.
Thought to change my phone service disconnection a couple weeks ago for nonpayment up to this weekend in order to plausibly explain away my negligence and I was quite happy to have it, was satisfied with it’s innocense before much later realizing that it felt so innocent only in its contrast to everything else, especially the real cause of my ignoring her. And that not very long ago having my phone shut off would have been embarrasing and a little shameful because even if it’snot a big deal and it happens to people all the time, I’m not that kind of person. I pay all my bills when I get them and I had the money. And knew the bill was coming and would have had to leave my box unemptied unattended for a fucking long time before actually experiencing the shutoff. I wouldn’t have told anybody. Only vowed to be better. I’ve changed a little, my perspective anyway at least.
Posted by peligrito at May 10, 2005 4:58 AM
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